We all are on a journey of self discovery. My journey of hardship landed time and time again at love. That no matter what the problem was, more love was always the solution. As a young child I had unhealthy attachment style, I craved love from all the wrong places. I used to have eating disorders and body dysmorphia. I used to hate myself and be so embarrassed of myself. I was sexually abused, I stayed I abusive relationships, and I struggled with severe P.T.S.D., chronic depression and anxiety for decades. I struggled with the violence I saw in my own life and in the world around me. Later in life I would loose a daughter to spinal bifida and still to this day I am alienated and have been alienated from one of my children for over four years. Missing my son, Titan, is the hardest thing I have ever lived through: there were times, on and off, that I was so depressed and felt so much pain I seriously desired to not be alive.

Becoming a mom was the only good thing I lived for, yet my own trauma and pain was holding back from being the best version of myself for my kids. For many years of my youth I hid behind different addictive behaviors to distract myself from the pain inside. Motherhood made me turn away from any drug use, but I still noticed that I was perpetually trying to avoid my feelings- cigarettes, shopping, food, sex, men…. I ran for so long I got tired of running. I realized I was wasting my precious life with distractions and missing my life’s true purpose in the process of trying to avoid certain feelings and emotions. I knew that avoiding the inevitable was just draining me and stopping me from living my best life. That it took more energy to run, than to face what I feared most: my pain.

A recipe, MOMSLOVE, was gifted to me and it helped me to learn how to navigate the difficult emotions and feelings I was always running from in one way or another. This recipe helps you realize that you are bigger and stronger than your pain. By turning back to Mother Earth, back to our inner wisdom and natural medicine we can overcome the hardships of this life.

Emotions and feelings are the language of spirit, and having healthy relationship with my emotions and feelings leads to a stronger relationship with spirit. The more I healed emotionally and physically, the more my intuition was enhanced, my life’s purpose more clearly defined and I had felt an increase in physical, emotionally and spiritual wellbeing.

There were many resources and guides who left me signs and information: questions and inspiration which all played a role in my continued strength to face the emotional turmoil guidance and knowing how to proceed. I am grateful to all the teachers and gurus and studies and classes and books and website that have made my healing possible step-by-step over the last twenty years. I am grateful for the vast array of life experiences that have made me able to relate to most traumas intimately. I pray that my own journey of healing can be used to help others and I pray that MOMSLOVE grows into becoming your trusted helper with inspirational resources for you on your hero’s journey of healing and self-discovery.